Know I am supposed to move but due to the pathetic connection I am getting here, I am just gonna stay…for now..

First day was like super tiring with all the travelling. The flight was postponed due to the bad weather in hk and so we end up reaching Japan ultra late but luckily cathay was nice enough to sponsor us a trip to Shinjuku, near our hostel so we cabbed n reached our small little hostel at about 1am. It was like a not bad experience sleeping in that tiny room.

Note to Self: MY next trip to Japan I am gonna pack damn light because the stairs up and down the subway station is just crazy!

Second day was like spend running around Tokyo Station like some mad woman searching for a place to put my luggage!!!OMG!!!is huge the station..totally not like cityhall station!!! Good luck to us on our train ride back from Hokkaido to Hiroshima!!!!Went Uniqlo and there are lots of nice nice stuff! I am going to go crazy buying stuff for my sis and mum on my last few days, when I need not lug all e heavy stuff around!!!Travelling is expensive, with one train ride easily costing us like 4 SGD? somemore if they are owned by different companiese we would need to like go out and go in again and the cost just escalate. Reached the Chubu farm at night and it was nice living with the Japanese host.

Note to self 2: To pick up Japanese when I am back in Singapore. Not knowing Japanese is tantamount to not knowing English in the US!just damn troublesome

Day 3: Farming was OMG and totally no joke! Farmed from like 8.30 am to 5 pm with like one lunch and two tea breaks in the middle! We spent the day at the grape farm watering the grapes with some random water and also cutting out random stems off! it was total hard work with my arms aching from carrying the luggage and stuff! I feel like I am painting my ceiling all over again!!!my neck is aching like shit n we got a kind of curfew to sleep by 9.30?

Will continue again! Time to Sleep!

Night world!

anyways sorry, and bye bye blog!!!

you have been with me my entire university life, thought I don’t always blog, but I will treasured you!

Decided to move, not sure when, where or how but…

Love, Me

Okay, end of bitchy-ness. I am just gonna throw away all these negative feelings and maybe throw away that letter too to not harbour anymore negative thoughts!

Whee, been having exciting days! I thought that be not going Kl, I will just stay at home or go somewhere and emo but my emo plan didnt work out much!

*The letter just came back again, like all the words about me wanting to break up just because I wanted freedom. But I feel is the other ways nowadays, is like I have all the freedom because I am single once more and rather than just mope around, as well do something more contructive.* This is the very first time in life when I go out with my guy friends and it purely platonic because I honestly do not harbour any romantic feelings anymore and I am going out with them because with girls, you have to repeat the story over n over again but when you meet your guy friends, there is no need to tell the story because it is just a mutual understanding and we can just move on to talk about other things. Things are just much simpler I feel.

Well, I met up with my favorite girls this afternoon and it was great catching up and stuff! And I went to SN to meet my favorite aunties and uncles. There are times when I see them gathering at the entrance and I though that perhaps the television show is nice. But today, when I was talking to aunty lim, my heart went out to her when she told me that she is waiting at the door waiting for her daughter to visit her. And she said that her daughter may just say that she will come but end up not coming but she will still wait for that little hope.

Many they did something evil to their children, maybe they have sinned when they are young, but does it really matter? If we can give criminals a second chance, why cant we give these elderly one more chance as well?

And I told her about Japan and she was like ai yo, all girls very dangerous and she sneakily asked me to get her something cheap from Japan, super tough but I will try my very best. And she gave me a kiss before I left! haha n she offered to keep a lookout for bf for me! sweetness n cuteness to the max!

Double happiness cuz the uncle whom I brought to Chong Pang market recognised me and told me that the battery I bought for him the last time is still works!

It may not be an easy journey but rather than spending my energy on negative stuff, I rather spend my Saturday afternoon doing more meaningful things!:)

Was supposed to go KL but I could not find back my 5 dollar ticket..but I guess it was my fault also..there were many a times when I could have just purchased it but I just keep delaying n stuff..from the beginning perhaps I was really apprehensive about the whole KL trip after the whole thing..so I just delayed till the promotion was gone n e price just happily went up to 100 plus, giving me the perfect excuse..

truth is, how can you face someone tt re-opened the whole thing that was supposed to be way hidden n never ever remembered..i have learnt from it n grown from it but the thoughts of it just flood my mind..i went cold storage tt day n this damn disgusting ang moh probably thought that i am some maid n tried to pick me up..gross to the max but i have learnt my lesson n concluded that there are times when being nice will just harm you…

i thought of finding plans to occupy my these two days since suddenly my two days became super ultra free, but i thought tt i needed some me time..i probably will get lots of it in Japan but then no harm having more time to think through stuff i guess..n i didnt feel like meeting anyone, i just feel like hiding in some little corner somewhere,n just hide inside n never come out..

reading the letter over n over again just made me realised how detestable and selfish i was, and perhaps other than my family members, I am not capable of showing that love and concern to anyone else..

for once, i am firm n am convinced that sometimes, is just best to leave things as they are..because, the hurt that i inflicted on you may be much more than the hurt inflicted on me..but no matter what, enough is enough..n i just hope that when one day if we ever bumped into eachother, perhaps things would be a little better..

my dad talked to me that day, saying that family background is not an issue, and nothing else mattered as long as e guy really love and care for me..but what he failed to tell me is that in return, you need to love n care for the guy as much as well…the see-saw is just not balanced, no wonder it just toppled over!

but other than this aspect of my life, I would say that everything else is going well! my family is all well and healthy…I got a job that I like, I went for interviews,some at small companies some at big companies learning so much about myself and thankful for all the opportunities that i am given..n i am thankful that I secured something..though I may have some lousy corridor seat since I will be the last one to enter!

so for now, just let me rot…for just one day of my life…

Today’s post would probably be one of the most intellectual post i would have in a long way to come! Would like to share this speech and this video that many of us may have came across at one point or another..

There are a few points which I found really inspiring, since I am at this crossroad deciding on which path to take. On one hand, I tell myself that I should find something stable and I should just settle for something..but quoting from Steve Job,

‘Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.’